My Story 👉 I always had a plan and a path I wanted to take. I had the dream to be an AT in the NFL , get married and start a family. I had just graduated with my Bachelors in Exercise Science. I was going to go to AT school and I remember having my first panic attack . I was super overwhelmed and I couldn’t handle it. I ended up not going and stayed back and did a 1 year Masters program. During this time trying to understand all these feelings and come to terms with my POI diagnosis that I found out around the same time. I didn’t handle being told that I won’t be able to have kids myself. I had so many feelings and I finally had to ask for help. I had started to have suicidal thoughts and knew I needed help. I was diagnosed with depression and have been dealing with it since. The last couple years have been a mixture of different things and trying to find my place. Sounds cheesy but with my mental health, family issues, and my POI diagnosis I had to find a new path that fit the change I was going through. Thr last couple years anxiety has been added into the mix and has come with a whole new set of issues to work on. Through this time I have had lows and highs and suicidal thoughts again but I was able to reach out for help. I has also helped that I have a close group of people I can turn too. Not many but a few good ones are better then a lot of bad ones. It’s a continuous journey and I’ve been lucky to have good ones around me.
But I would be lying if I said it’s an easy journey and that everyone has someone to turn to. Not everyone has a family member or friend they can talk to or reach out to when feeling down or suicidal. So my advice is to know you are not alone in this. There are resources you can reach out to which I can link some below. Always know you are not alone!
Links: 👉 988 Lifeline
👉 Find A Helpline 👉 NAMI