It has been a little while since I wrote a new post . I thought about what I wanted to write about and finally figured I would bring up this huge topic not many want to talk about depression. It’s something that needs to be talked about and also for others to know they are not alone.
According to Webster Depression is “a serious medical condition in which a person feels very sad, hopeless, and unimportant and often is unable to live in a normal way”. Depression is more than just feeling sad; it is losing interest in things you loved to do, feeling like you are lost, feeling like you are alone even when you are surrounded by people. It is like a roller coaster, some days are better than others. The ups and downs are constant. I never understood it until I was faced with it. I have felt alone, lost, and just not like myself. But I come back from it. It is a daily battle within yourself, which is the hardest battle to fight. I remember my cross-country coach in high school always saying during practices and races that the hardest part of the race was overcoming the mental aspect. You have to believe and know you can do it. And she was right, it was the hardest part. As a person it is easy to motivate others but it’s harder to do the same for yourself. That is what’s so hard with depression, is taking the time and care for yourself. To know you are not alone, you are not lost, and that you are loved. Even when you tell yourself that, it can get hard to believe it. That is what makes depression a lifetime battle.Everyday you have to wake up and tell yourself you are good enough, and that you can do it. You never know when it could just hit you so you just have to know and take care of yourself in the moment . What helps me is knowing what helps me and engrossing myself in it. I feel my best when I am running, lifting, playing with my 2 dogs, spending time with my family, and my faith in God. So that it what I engross myself in. If everything feels like it is going wrong, I know I have those things. Personally the last 2 weeks have been the hardest for me, and that is what I have had to learn to take care of myself and know that I am loved and involve myself in the things I love. So if it just laying down for the day surrounded by my dogs watching a movie, that will be it. It is taking the day by strides and knowing when to talk to someone. I have been blessed with a wonderful support system and that is what has saved me. But not everyone has that so take this from me do not judge or ridicule someone, spend time and talk with them, give them a smile and/or a hug, take the time to make sure they are ok. I am a big proponent of spreading love, because in this World we are surrounded by so much hate. You never know what someone else is going through, so do not think you understand till you take the time to understand.