This is a surprising topic I decided to write about but thought it was important and interesting.

So some background information, I didn’t date in high school or my early 20s. I was asked to prom I’m high school, and that was it. From 19 to 22, I was surrounded by male sports and fb players that wanted in my pants. I was this nieve girl who was thrown into this college and athletic surroundings and was completely lost and got hurt. At this time, I also got my POI diagnosis and was dealing with all those emotions and issues. Once I graduated college with my MS, I just started working and focused on that and didn’t really think of dating. I am also someone who doesn’t really go out in regular finding someone settings like bars.

So I did not date for years. Then, 28 and 29, I felt like I was ready and tried online dating. That’s where most of my experience in this post will come from online dating. I put myself out on hinge and bumble. Started out well, and I got likes and started talking to a few guys. But 3 things would happen 👉 ghosting, leading me on, or more ghosting. It sucked. I don’t think people understand how ghosting feels on a person. I am a straightforward person, so I would rather be sad that you did not want to continue talking but move on instead of ghosting me and being lost. The last guy I talked to, I thought, was going good, and we even added each other on social media and got each other’s numbers. Then I woke up, on my birthday actually, to being blocked on everything. It was a horrible feeling. Just imagine thinking someone you thought you clicked with just ghosting you, then blocking you, and just basically making you feel unimportant to deserve an answer.

Now 30 years old, and I’m done. I deleted all the apps and all the numbers of the ghosters. I mean, I see everyone getting married, engaged , and having kids, and it can get to me. But inside, I feel so much better getting rid of that negativity the online dating was causing and just focusing on me. If I can give any advice to other girls and women, it’s to know your worth and don’t settle for less than you deserve. Focus on you, and God will put you in the moment when he is ready.